Some Greeks came up to Philip in John 12 and said they wanted to see Jesus. Philip told Andrew and together they told Jesus.
Jesus answered by talking about how if a seed does not die it does not yield a harvest, and how we must have no regard for our own life here if we want to preserve our life for eternity and then goes on to talk about his own trouble and distress. This is followed by a voice from heaven.
Is this the Jesus I am wanting to see: one that when I ask a question seems to answer something else; one that models for me that time must be seen in the context of eternity; that my concerns for today need to be surrendered so that I can embrace transcendent values; that a troubled soul is not necessarily a problem to be fixed but a reality to be experienced; one that dialogues with heaven and talks to me in ways those around me may interpret as thunder?
I know that when I pray, “Lead me not into temptation” one of my temptations is to create the Jesus I want. I want a Jesus that will stop everything and acknowledge the people who I bring to Him, especially if they are hurting. I want a Jesus that will have regard for what is important to me today. I want a Jesus with whom a relationship will mean I have no trouble and distress.
The Jesus I have is not the Jesus I want. But, more importantly, the me that He has is not the me that He wants.
Lord Jesus Christ, create in me a heart that wants to see You as You are.