The plan I had been looking forward to was becoming messy. In fact I started to wonder why I had ever thought it would be a good idea.

My invited guests, days before the event, started asking questions and making suggestions. Instead of the gratitude I had expected I heard them asking for reassurance that their needs would be met.

Knowing I needed to process this with God, I brought my lack of peace to Him. I was wanting him to pour oil on my wounds of not being trusted or appreciated.

Instead He said, “Listen to their responses. Do you hear echos of your prayers to Me?”

It didn’t take me long to recognize that even as He has prepared a journey for me toward Him, rather than blind trust, I interrupt with what I think I need. “I know you have blessed me richly, but I want to be able to cry tears and I want to remember my dreams.”

Thank you, Father, for the picture of how my prayers betray my declaration of absolute trust in You and your process.

Can you abandon yourself to God’s plan for you today or do you need to “help” Him?