In a few days I will be 75 years old. Another way to say it is that I am beginning my 76th year. My husband always adds 9 months to his age as he believes life starts at conception. But, however I state my age don’t matter that much.to me. More importantly, I have a desire to mark this event in some way.
I want to find a way to express gratitude for a life of grace and favor. I am aware of being blessed with provision and protection. I am aware of being trusted with the fellowship of suffering. I stand in awe of God choosing me (as He does all believers) to host his Holy Spirit.
There is much to write about that has eternal significance. Knowing that is. in and of itself. too profound for words.
But tonight, I want to write about time. I have often taught that our bodies are tents designed for temporary use. Unlike perishable food from the grocery we are not stamped with a label that reads “Best if used by…”. In fact, since our spirits do not get old or sick, I know that my most powerful years, spiritually, lie ahead of me.
As I have pondered this next stretch of my journey I am remembering the advice I was given when, at age 70 I prepared for a 70 mile hike: “Fill your backpack with only what you absolutely need; things you could not do without. Then, take half of that out.”
So, I have been asking God to show me what I am carrying that I don’t need. Asking for guidance as to what activities to continue, what relationships to nurture, what spiritual experiences to pursue. How can I posture myself in a way that will lead to an event where I encounter Jesus in a deeper way?
This morning, He tenderly told me I was asking the wrong questions.
Yes, I am beginning the fourth quarter but that doesn’t mean the end is in sight. (There may be an overtime played). It also doesn’t mean that God is suddenly going to provide me with a paradigm for me to follow.
I hear the old familiar advice:
Seek My face, Hold My hand, Follow My footsteps, Hear My voice, Lean your head on My shoulder and listen to My heartbeat.
But, Abba. That’s what you’ve been telling me for the past three quarters.
Then He pulls me closer, “Don’t seek an event”, He whispers, “I am your event”.