I am writing this from a page in my story where I have exhausted all I know to do. My prayer for guidance seems to be answered with
“Watch God be God”.
This phrase is not unfamiliar to me as we lean on it for ministry decisions. The step that is new is releasing to God a sense of responsibility for a personal wringer.
As I process this, I am aware that there is a choice of definitions for the word “wonder”.
Dictionary.com confirms that “wonder” can be defined by “to be filled with admiration, amazement, awe” or by an alternate definition of “to doubt”.
As I watch God with wonder, am I honoring Him by resting in the shelter of His care or am I writhing with anxiety as I doubt His promises.
One way to answer this question is to examine the construction of my prayers.
Do I begin my prayer with “Please” or with “Thank You?”